The other day I realized that I have been laying down on some figurative floor and letting some figurative rain pour on me and figurative feet trample me. (Yes, my imagination is dramatic). I can’t exactly say what finally pushed me down but I know that the following two things played a role in my tumble.
- I’ve only been diagnosed with MS a little over a year. I think I’m still angry and terrified all mixed up into one major emotional brain jumble.
- My job makes me into a data entry zombie, and personally, I think I could do a lot better with my skills.
The best part of this revelation though was understanding that I had to pick myself up. I had to change my thinking. That is when this quote popped into my head: “It’s not whether you get knocked down, it’s whether you get up.” Vince Lombardi Originally, a teammate gave me this quote when I was playing soccer. (I ended up on the ground a lot and I was to take it literally.) However, now the quote captures more than literally falling, but reminds me that giving up isn’t an option.
It has only been 2 days since I imagined picking myself up and wiping myself off, but my resolve to make my life better has been present. I applied to a few jobs, exercised, and had an awesome Sunday with my fiancé even though I was completely exhausted from only a few hours of sleep the night before.
If there is one thing, I hope to keep with me from all this, it would be that even if something has knocked me down, I need to get up. Otherwise, I might lie there too long, and be too trampled to actually get up.